shopped for my nephew

shopped for my nephew

Hi.
I am just back from shopping. I wanted to find some jackets for my little nephew who is only half year old. He was so cute and adorable. My parents and sister are so proud of him. It seems he pretty likes me during my short new year holiday. He is 70 cm tall but gets cold too easily. Surly he is going to be spoiled by all of us. Mostly he's being taken care of by my parents and my sister while his father just lost a lawsuit and became almost pennyless after doing artcrafts trade in another city. I feel a little sad for my sisiter for she has to be very independent not only economically but also emotionally. I hope I could do something for her.
Back to shopping. I didn't realized today was women's day until I found in all the stores on the streets around me there were crowds of shopping women totally happy and excited by sales discounts. I shopped a while and didn't find the right clothes for my nephew. In the end, I grabbed a pair of underpants for myself. Shopping for myself seems very easy but in another way very difficult, for I am very persistant to some brands and designs. So if it's right, I can have it immediately without a second of thinking. Even sometimes I will take 2 or 3 pieces of the same pattern in same or different colors. Am I too veird?
Perfectionist may somebody will conclude I am. Truly I am so not only in matters of shopping, working but also looking for my Miss right. Almost all my classmates are married and having babies already. They and my parents keep asking me what actions or standards for my girlfriend. I always smile in embarrassment, ' Come on, it's my own privacy and I am still waiting for my Miss right.' But, am I really?
I just don't feel very secure about my work, my life. A married man is burdened a lot, as I see it, by family, child and all others. I don't think I am mature enough now, so to some degree, I'm still a child. I just hope I will find as soon as possible a right woman to love and meanwhile to help me be more grown-up.
Today in history, Ruan Linyu, undoubted queen of silent film of 1930s China poisoned herself to death in her villa at a age of 25. Still at the climax of her performing career, she had been stressed too long and were uncapable of taking a little bit more, of all slanders and defamatory allegations about her love affairs. Several years ago a Hongkong-made movie, Ruan Linyu, starred by Maggie Cheung, uncovering her real life, moved the juries and global audience and won Maggie the Silver bear in Berlin.
Last, have a look at my cute nephew!