'you are always on my mind.'

'you are always on my mind.'

Don't know why it became so cold today and the low dropped to 3 degrees. In the big cold wind, I hurried to the training site and endured another boring morning. We completed all the needed forms and gathered all relevant materials while the teacher was nagging about the professional morals and so on. After that, many of us complained to the organizing unit for not allowing to chop on the forms in the morning instead of in the afternoon when there isn't supposed to be any lectures. Stupid, isn't it? Since nothing lecture is going to be held, so why trouble so much leaving and coming back 2 hours later on such a cold day? About twenty minutes' gossip ended we won and succeeded in getting what we wanted.

Said goodbye to my workmates and went to KFC for lunch. It was so warm and so quiet today, maybe because it was a little bit late for lunch. Browsing some newspaper and magazine, I enjoyed their honeysweet BBQ chicken wings and then I came back home. Had a long talk with another friend who works only for one year but he got very good chance and is going to promoted soon. He is a very friendly and smart guy. I really feel happy for him.

A post published by hero627 at cnblog caught my attention. It reads a little sad but touching. I really like to share with you. My translation is,

I searched on google and opened the link to' Bamboo dew and lotus breeze'. The page popped out and was all the same as it was six years ago. The tagline is still there: you are always on my mind.

Six years ago, I was new to the net world and opened his web by chance. The sentence attracted me deeply and since then I visited here quite often and spent much time chatting with some young arts students and poems.

Now I havn't visited it for a long time and I would have forgotten it completely if it weren't F who lefted a message on my QQ. I got to know F on that website, who worked as its administor.

He mentioned in his QQ message: his marriage has come to an end even it hurts him so much; but she is so determined to set off. He loves his child and wants to have his, but for her sake, he makes his mind she takes him away with her. Once the token of their love and the evidence of the happy family life they had, the child's leaving makes the grandparents so painful. They were so reluctant and least supportive of their son. They even grow kind of hatred in him. But to be honest, she leaves not because her love for him is gone but instead, she can't get along with his mother at all. Being the son and the husband entangled in the battle between two women, his life is full of fights and quarrels.

He also attached her post at the forum describing the emotional unhappiness after their marriage. All their little joy and pleasure they had for a short time were crushed too soon.

I could picture a very upset and embarrassing man of F between his own mother and wife. After all his efforts he still failed to work them and their relations out.

While reading, I can't help recalling of a picture he sent to me in 2000. In the photo, he and she are sitting close in great smiles. Tonight, I take the picture out again but this time the picture moved me to tears easily. Both of them are crippled and got to know each other in the cyber world. Just as the tagline claims, the first encounter is totally soul attraction and comfident in conqueering all the coming hardship in reality world. They got married, in the end of 2000 and I congratulated and mailed them a present.

It's been 4 years.

They had their child and their careers have been pretty good. But how, who knows, they are breaking up now?

"You are always on my mind. "Forever always on mind?! How heavy is this love admonition! There are so many times we may not fight our way out of this troubled world full of pains and hardships which is marshes of darkness and silence.

The web page is still there but the story on it has become history.

My heart sank; the piano music is flowing like raindrops out of my window.